I am not proud of this piece. I took it down for a time because I was ashamed of it, but realized....I might as well still share it, as it was an important learning lesson for me, and the way the project was going, versus how it should go. This set focused around one particular event and person, and my feelings towards myself as a result - this was not constructive or mature, and I regret it. However, it was what it was, and helped me come to understand myself and the nature of Hamartia better. So take it for what it's worth. Such a piece will never be performed again. Iriak has been made right.
"Hamartia's latest performance, dealing heavily with feelings of loss, betrayal, self-loathing, hatred, regret, anguish, suicide, depression, fear, loneliness, and overall absolute misery. Performed live on May 4th at Sugar City.
All of these things are explored in depth during this set, and it is deeply personal. No punches are pulled here, and things are explored brutally honestly for what they are. And what they are continues to weigh heavily upon my soul to this very moment...there is no answer to these things, only severed ends of thoughts and emotions, shredded nerves and flowing tears.
This set almost brought about my suicide. I encourage you to listen to both the introduction and parting words sections, but for those who are hungry for the sounds themselves, these have been separated from the main set itself (Demonstration)"
"You show me how to see that nothing is whole, and nothing is broken, my heart's a battleground...I need more affection than you know"
released May 4, 2017
DL for recording, mastering, bass, and additional noise work
ZE for bass work
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